Sunday Poem: The 23rd Psalm
The God of love my shepherd is,
And he that doth me feed:
While he is mine, and I am his,
What can I want or need?
He leads me to the tender grass,
Where I both feed and rest;
Then to the streams that gently pass:
In both I have the best.
Or if I stray, he doth convert
And bring my mind in frame:
And all this not for my desert,
But for his holy name.
Yea, in death’s shady black abode
Well may I walk, not fear:
For thou art with me; and thy rod
To guide, thy staff to bear.
Nay, thou dost make me sit and dine,
Even in my enemies’ sight;
My head with oil, my cup with wine
Runs over day and night.
Surely thy sweet and wondrous love
Shall measure all my days;
And as it never shall remove,
So neither shall my praise.
— George Herbert
Herbert, George. “Twenty-Third Psalm.” The Poets’ Book of Psalms. Laurance Wieder, ed. HarperCollins Publishers: NY, NY. 1995. p. 32
I Miss You
Tonight I was reflecting on the prophet Samuel at the beginning of 1 Samuel 16. God asks Samuel how long he intends to grieve for Saul. If you only pick up in the middle of Samuel, it’s easy to forget that Saul is still alive at this point. He’s just departed so greatly from God’s vision (and Samuel’s) for him, that God is asking Samuel to get out his anointing kit and go get another king for Israel.
Grieving someone who is still living is hard and painful.
In this Lenten season, I told myself I wanted to focus on forgiveness with regard to a specific situation in my life. In 2009, I had a couple very traumatic life events and someone to whom I was very close abruptly left my life without explanation or goodbye. I haven’t heard from or seen this person since.
I’ve been picking at the scab over this emotional wound. Playing over the events in my mind, wondering what I could have changed, what I should have anticipated, what was my fault, what wasn’t.
This wasn’t an acquaintance. This was a very, very close friend. Someone with whom I had laughed, made plans, traveled, stayed up late, had adventures, trusted with secrets. This person was the only non-medical person present with me at the birth of my son and the first non-medical person to hold him. Five days later, the person left my life… apparently forever.
How long should I grieve this friendship, this bond, the plans that will never come to fruition? Do I cut off the branch, believing it will never bear fruit again?
This grief is complicated by additional longing for other people. Additional grieving of living persons. Following a significant church decision last year, several people left our congregation. While I support the decision, I cannot deny that the loss of the members has grieved me. Deeply.
It’s not the lower numbers or giving. I miss the laughter that used to echo the halls, the hands that were always there to set up table, the loud amen that let me know a sermon point had hit home.
We still talk about the people who have left. Airing their stories. Pushing their names out of our mouths and remembering the life we shared together. And I don’t think I am the only one who grieves, who misses friends and neighbors.
When people die, we may well struggle to make our peace with them and with death. The grieving goes on beyond what we expect and, often, beyond what we imagined we could handle. When we are grieving the living, it’s hard to know what to say or how to frame our feelings.
I once heard it said, regarding grief, that your need to discuss it goes on beyond other people’s ability to listen to it.
I’ve found that to be very true.
I think of Samuel, pouring oil over young David’s head at God’s command. As his hands performed the task, I think his mind probably went back to the last time he’d done the very same thing. He thought of Saul and there was the familiar accompanying twinge.
I miss you.
The Woman Speaks Out (A Sermon on John 8:2-11)
Reframing Hope (A Book Review)
I read Reframing Hope: Vital Ministry in a New Generation by Carol Howard Merritt for a recent continuing education event. I struggled with the book, initially, for two reasons. When I started, I felt like this was one of those books that helpfully tells pastors everything about church is changing and that’s it. No help for how to cope with change, how to educate around and love into change. The other reason I felt frustrated was that I was holding a book in my hands about ministry to 20-30 somethings (or so it seemed). If I could get them to meet me somewhere, anywhere, I’d be glad to try new ministries with them, but…
So I dragged my feet about reading the book until on the plane flight for the event. Once I started to read, I felt drawn in to Merritt’s style and narrative. She actually has been a pastor of a small congregation and is now in a larger context. I resist reading books where I feel like the person is talking at me and Merritt’s voice is the exact opposite. She speaks from her own pastoral knowledge and spiritual longing. She explores the topics of social media, Scriptural understanding, relationship to creation and community activism, describing new ways that congregations are coming to understand themselves through these lenses.
I remember a woman in a preaching class I took telling one of those apocryphal stories about a “new preacher”. Said preacher was going to do his first sermon in a new congregation. Nervous, he studied the passages and did his own translation from the ancient languages. He read multiple commentaries and authored several versions of the sermon. He had illustrations, sung refrains, voice modulation and a powerful conclusion. When he delivered the sermon, he worked up a sweat and prayed powerfully at the end. When he was greeting members of the church at the end of the service, one of the matriarchs of the church said to the young pastor, “You’ve got powerful living water, but you have to bring it to us in a cup we can drink from.”
I thought of that anecdote several times while reading Reframing Hope. Merritt brings difficult news, but refreshing grace in a cup from which any congregation can drink.
Mainline churches are slowly coming to grips with the reality that people aren’t seeking spiritual services in the same way they once were. However, this doesn’t mean change for the sake of change. It means rethinking the roots of a church’s faith. What’s important to your congregation? Is there a way to offer those core values to one another and a neighborhood that might look different? Is it time to consider offering the new covenant in a different cup, so to speak?
Too often churches look at what people are drawn to outside of church and then try to imitate that. As Merritt points out, the imitation is poor and not flattering to either side. In addition, the implication is then that the church has nothing to offer of its own accord. No wonder people don’t see the point, if what the church holds out is a strained pablum of entertainment and self-justification.
Merritt writes:
It is easy for our churches and denominations to slip into a narrative of decline, which leads us to impart a message of deprivation: Come to our church because we need more people, money, and energy (which doesn’t sound like good news at all). If we want to reach out to a new generation, we must avoid communicating that we’re seeking just another warm body in the pew, another giving unity to meet the budget, or more volunteers for our programs.
Yet, if our churches can develop and communicate a narrative that invites people to enter- if they are places where a person can slip into the pew for an hour of internal wrestling, where she can mentally question everything that happens, and at the end of it, she knows that such a questioning is okay- then people will attend again. Because, after all, we often talk about the spiritual journey as a matter of acceptance, but in reality it has more to do with struggle. Then, after a good long time, if she’s willing to listen to the stories of the community, her own story will begin to form in her belly. It’s an extensive, tough and beautiful process. And it is only of the great things about being church.
I think that’s the heart of reframing hope and drinking from a new cup. In our pews, social halls, Facebook groups, Twitter feeds and late night conversations, we have to be honest about our questions, our doubts and our certainties. There are people who are thirsty and our Mainline congregations (among others) know where to find Living Water. We must learn to reorient ourselves to the new tools of communication and meetings, while holding fast to what is true.
The way, the truth and the life is not in our denominational polity, our traditional Easter service, a new afterschool drop-in program or a sports complex. It is Jesus Christ and how he meets us in one another in every day encounters. By rethinking how we encounter people in preaching, worship, Bible study, recreation and environmental stewardship, we take our hope and place it, once again, squarely in God’s hands.
I keep thinking of Paul’s words to the embroiled Corinthians: In the end, three things will last: faith, hope and love. And the greatest of these is love. (The Word According Julia interpretation)
The greatest of these is love. Faith without love is dogmatism. Hope without love is bleak. But love without faith or hope longs for structure and impetus.
Merritt’s love for the Church as God’s work on earth shines through her analysis and prodding. Her faith in our ability as church people to make change is perhaps deeper than we deserve. Her hope, though, that people will understand that the world thirsts and we can help, if we’ll just look at the cup we’re using. Think of Indiana Jones. What kind of a cup would a carpenter use? While the world changes at a rapid pace, the Church has the opportunity to provide respite and the consolation of mystery if we’re willing to reframe our objectives and our understanding of what it means to be a congregation, united in hope and love.
I recommend Merritt’s book to people who are trying to understand the changing dynamics of the Mainlines and emergent traditions. I have an extra copy of this book, purchased with my own money, to give away. Please comment if you’d like to receive it. If I receive more than one request, I’ll choose a recipient at random.
Songs in a Slow Season, or Why I Love Lenten Hymns
I received a message today from a source who shall remain nameless asking, “Why are there no good Lenten hymns?”
Aside from the fact that I was greatly anticipating singing Fanny Crosby’s “Jesus, Keep Me Near the Cross”, I also took umbrage on behalf of Lenten hymns in general. Greatly maligned in moderns times, I often hear, “It’s better than what we sing in Lent,” with regard to some hymn that has yet to reach popular heights.
I like the Lenten hymns and their deeply resonant lyrics. What else reaches the lyrical heights of “In the Cross of Christ I Glory”: “When the woes of life o’er take me, hopes deceive and fears annoy, never shall the cross forsake me; lo, it glows with peace and joy.”? Can you honestly say you feel nothing when you sing, “I Want Jesus to Walk With Me”?
I realized today that I think I prefer the Lenten hymns to the Advent ones. In Advent, we sing about a hope that is still to be fulfilled, the return of Christ, even as we celebrate with joy the first coming of Jesus. In Lent, though, we sing of our struggles with faith, with sacrifice, with grief and loss.
If you don’t like singing, that’s a different issue. However, I’m a little bit of a hymn fanatic. My life flows on in endless song and I hold to the faith we sing. For me, the Lenten hymns express the depth of that faith in a way that is unique and special.
I may have to use this season to showcase a few of my favorite Lenten hymns. (If I knew how to make a bracket, I’d take nominations and we could have a little tournament.)
First up, “Come, Ye Disconsolate”. This is my number 1 seed Lenten song (and one of my 4 funeral selections).
The lyrics are below and I’ve included two VERY different arrangements of the song for your listening enjoyment.
Blowing in the Wind (Sermon 3/20)
Friday Five: Spring Forward Edition
Friday Five: Springing Forward
Jan writes: Whether we liked it or not, we all “sprang forward” with the change to daylight savings time in the USA this past Sunday. There is lightness and brightness slipping in as spring approaches, so let us consider what is springing forth in our lives right now.
Name 5 things that are springing forth, possibly including :
- what you hope for
- what you dread
- what you observe
- what is concrete
- what is intangible
God and Bodies (Sermon, Lent 1A)
Theodicy, the Odyssey
Theodicy is the fancy name for those late-night, exhaustion or substance-fueled, discussions wherein one tries to balance the goodness of God (or the presumed goodness of God) with the existence of evil. The same name is also applied to the philosophical or theological study of the same. I know no one who hasn’t had this discussion, so I hardly think formal rules apply.
In the wake of the 8.9 magnitude earthquake in Japan, many people are having this conversation. Even as we pray, “Lord, in your mercy remember your creation”, we wonder how this can happen. I know some of my brothers and sisters in faith, even now, are sorting through the history of Japanese sins, but many others are already collecting or sending funds, supplies and heartfelt prayers.
Does God cause these things to happen? Answering this question would take me into the realm of apologetics, the theological field of explanation. I’m neither qualified nor able to be God’s apologist.
Here’s why: Consider Isaiah 45:6-7
I realize I’m proof-texting from two verses what I could easily undermine by discussing God’s love for creation, promise to Noah and even other verses in Isaiah. However, the end result will be the same. I don’t know why bad things happen. I believe God is in control, but I also believe that God does not subvert the way that nature plays out.
The Lutheran theologian Martin Marty says this:
God the creator creates out of love. That creation finds us in a created and hence “natural” world, not Eden of old or Paradise of tomorrow or Utopia in between. Since we belong to the created or natural world, we are subject to all that goes with it, including birth and death, springtime and autumn, sunshine and shadow- some lives knowing outrageously more of the latter than of the former. And as we belong to created nature, we also live in a world in which accidents happen, unexplained good and bad things occur. Those people killed by the fallen tower of Siloam just happened to be there, and the surviving soldier whom one bullet missed just happened to have moves before it came and killed his buddy behind him. (Marty, Martin E. Lutheran Questions, Lutheran Answers. Augsburg Fortress, Minneaoplis, MN. 2007. p. 45)
What Marty is saying is that we don’t always know why things happen, but we’re not called to stark realism, we’re called to hopefulness in the presence of God in suffering and in joy. We may never fully understand the whys and wherefores in this life, but we simply focus on the the gift of life we have and on trying not to cause more chaos than already happens around us.
For today, Psalm 46 in haiku:
God is our refuge,
a timely help in trouble,
the Giver of strength.
Never shall we fear
even though mountains should fall
into ocean depths;
when wild waters rage
and mountain are washed by waves,
God is our stronghold.
Consider God’s works
and the redoubtable deeds
He has done on earth:
He has stamped out wars,
breaking bows and snapping spears
setting shields ablaze.
‘Know that I am God,
supreme among the nations,
high above the earth!”
Yahweh Sabaoth,
the Lord of hosts, is with us.
Jacob’s God, our shield.
Gwyn, Richard. The Psalms in Haiku Form. Gracewing, Fowler Wright Books, Herefordshire; 1997. p. 52
